Ask and you shall receive. Perhaps a bit too much. The law of attraction is truly infallible, never failing to show me the reality unfolding before me, acting upon me like a whirlwind; for better or for worse. Perhaps I complained a bit too much yesterday about my emotional blocks, about not being able to feel emotions properly, and I didn’t write it, but I was also deeply bored with how flat my life was at the moment. And already yesterday afternoon, the first shock came.
There are many things unfortunately I cannot write here, situations that have become entangled in my life and if they were to come out, they would create chaos among the people close to me and myself, so I’ll try to say the essential for you to understand without interfering with these matters.
The first piece of news is that I will be moving house in less than 2 weeks, I will have to leave my beloved flatmates and my beautiful home to go and live in a place still unknown to me.
The second news concerns my past relationship, toxic and heartbreaking, now over for over a year, which still obsessively haunts me. In practice, this person is going to live with their ex before me (yes, the person I wasn’t supposed to be jealous of). I don’t want to argue more about it here, maybe one day I’ll write a novel about it, but I’m still waiting for my happy ending. At least that day I’ll be rich because it’s a story worthy of Hollywood. (Still not bad as news on Valentine’s Day).
In essence, I received this news in less than 1 hour, and the emotions I experienced there were really strong. Anger, resentment, fear of the unknown, victimhood, and frustration. And so on. My lizard brain couldn’t make sense of it, I burst into tears every minute and felt inadequate and adrift. Honestly, much more for the relationship than for the house, even though that’s a real problem.
But I’m not just a lizard, I’m also a person who aspires to self-improvement, and I was looking for help in the pages of books, in cards, and in my baggage of experiences. Unfortunately, there wasn’t much to be done, I fell asleep late and rested terribly, BUT, today I had the second day of “Transcendental Breathing”.
The practice:
Yes, because yesterday I started this journey to unlock emotions (see previous article), and today I added another 5 minutes to the practice.
David De Angelis indeed recommends performing this technique for at least 40 minutes and for a period of at least 8 days to see the first results.
So, with my mood underground and the anxiety of this possible emotional breakthrough, I started to practice.
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Initially, time never passed, I had difficulty breathing from the belly and could only fill my lungs in the upper part. After about 10 minutes things changed, I managed to keep the focus on my breath and to unlock the diaphragm a bit, which allows for deeper exhales, and therefore also deeper inhales.
At the twentieth minute I opened my eyes to see how much time was left since I was starting to get bored again, I saw that there were still 15 minutes left and at this point I continued.
And there I began to have a rather unusual change of thoughts for me.
I thought that the thoughts that emerged had to be negative to unlock emotions, instead, like yesterday, waves of positive thoughts came.
New ideas, inspiration, and even a bit of zest for life.
Obviously, the thoughts that were oppressing me before haven’t disappeared, they are still there, but it’s as if the breathing practice helped me to set them aside and to consider them only as an additional thing, not as the only thing present in my life.
My desires and ambitions surfaced, and the infinity of beautiful things that I am experiencing, which are many as well. In the end, beautiful things happen, but if we let only one thing bring us down, it’s easy not to be able to enjoy even those, and perhaps sometimes it takes an effort to conquer them.
I finished the practice with a lot of desire to do, my brain relaxed and again, very hungry.
Tomorrow is day 3, who knows what will happen?!
Miss Adore